so, i'm pregnant. and apparently when you're pregnant, at nine months you have to pop a baby out. of. your. unmentionables. oh my gosh. we started our birth classes last sunday and at the end they showed a few vidoes of women giving birth and let me tell you. they should have had a warning on that video. i was not prepared. i told one of my girlfriends about it and she said i need to explore all my feelings about it, but really my feelings are very simple. i don't want to see other people giving birth. i mean, it is an amazing, miraculous thing that our bodies are created to produce and birth human life. i am in full agreement with this, and i'm so, so ecstatic about baby grace (and still can't believe it!). but in no way does that make me want to see other people giving birth. i mean. it's a little private. and, uh, gross. i know there are plenty of women out there who will probably disagree with me, and who can't get enough of the whole birth process and think it's so interesting and want to see these videos over and over again. i am just not those people. i'm mostly okay with the birth process itself (besides that it's gross and painful of course), but frankly, seeing other people give birth freaks me out! i mean, it's scary enough without watching someone else's experience! and okay, maybe i'm a little freaked out by the whole thing in general.
however, i also have a friend who loves giving birth, so maybe that's how i'll feel??